Who is Awesome?

by the end of today everything will go back to normal.

Today.

It may be a mistake from the very start but at least I never regretted knowing you. Having weird and nonsensical conversation with you, and be able to talk about anything under the sky. It may be a long time to see you again but nevertheless I wish the best for you for your future :)

不想傻傻的在进陷阱.

It is been long since I felt this way. And truthfully speaking this really sucks. I had no idea why I’m getting so pessimistic ever since poly life started. Whether do you know me or not, I used to be a very optimistic person. I hate losing faith and hope in my life. I hate feeling screwed in every sector of my life. I hate the fact that even if I worked hard for something it still never turned out to be what i wanted. I know life would never be smooth-sailing but why is it that I never once had something i really wanted. I hate it life is unfair. I hate my life. I hate everything.

It’s been long. It’s been long since i felt whatever i worked hard for is just nothing but lies, betrayal or whatsoever. I hate being so insignificant. I swear I will stop trying. I swear I won’t be a good girl anymore.

Life didn’t go easy on me, I won’t go easy on life either.